This is a poem I started to write out on paper, not on computer, but I figured I’d share for your reading pleasure.

offered sanguine

         for the passing

   truth in promises

           pain required so spake

                        this is where I stand

For my faith

       one more scar

             dutifully worn

             proudly earned

     drops of blood

            wept into the soil

                     always freely

THIS I CHOSE

          What would you give to connect?

But did you vote anyway? Even though we are very cynical, I feel, as a generation, I think it’s very important to make some kind of statement even if you take a sophomoric stance by voting for your dirty sock or Homer Simpson. As a proud member of Gen Y, while I appreciate our own cautiousness and conniving for moments when our actions actually mean something, we do sit back on the sidelines far too often simply because action seems inconvenient or uncomfortable or pointless. While it may seem pointless to vote for people you think will do a mediocre job at best, it is far better than to lose the right entirely.

Believe me, things could be far worse than they are now. Anyway, I’m closing out for now. I will write more later, I’m sure.

So I’ve become addicted to myspace since I usually fire off a two-minute rant or rave while I’m looking for posties from my real life friends and family members in other parts of the country. Well, some are local, but you get the drift. I haven’t forgotten you all here on xanga, and I’m hoping to at least drop by once a week. The more writing I do that’s not school-related, the better I feel.

On that note, I’ve been dealing with some personal issues through my favorite therapy-method: poetry. Ahh, I’m sure some are hoping for my latest sequence of rhythmic words but I’m not quite ready to post anything yet. In fact, I’m considering another option. Normally around this year, I choose a poem, pay the stupid three dollar entry fee, and place it in the running for the Kansas Voices competition. I have decided not to waste my time. I think you might be hearing from me regarding a volume of poetry in the next few months.

Then I will probably post some excerpts both here and on myspace, since I wouldn’t expect anyone to want to buy a book of poems without an idea of the theme.

If, in fact, you are on myspace, please feel free to add me. This is my link: http://www.myspace.com/moonmage82 Do let me know if you found me on here and what your xanga ID is so I can keep tabs with you on both places. In any case, I hope you all are having a great weekend. It’s cold here in Kansas but I don’t mind. I have enough to keep myself occupied inside the house. Whether I want to do these things is, in many cases, another matter entirely.

I spend so much more time on MySpace than here, so most of my blogging goes on there. I advise that you find me there too if you haven’t. Things are going really well so far this semester in school, I’m being a nut and doing NaNoWriMo again this year so that’s another reason I’ve not been in here much. So anyway, I hope everyone’s doing well…

I’m curious as to how the pod woman reacted when she found out her daughter married into my family.  I would have loved to have been a fly on the wall for that. (My brother and I call her that because she looks like a pod person – old cheezy horror flick, kiddies – when she forgets to draw her eyebrows in because she shaves all her eyebrow hair off… Yeah, tell me about it.) So anyway, the family’s widened a good bit and comes complete with yet another family feud.

(I caught the bouquet. I think some deity decided it would be funny because my mind was trying to force me to back pedal but my body refused to comply.)

So, I’m sitting here in black jeans and a grey sweater, enjoying cup of coffee number two. It’s not been warm at all since yesterday and I don’t think we have to worry about digging shorts or capris out again for awhile. I’m a little pissed off – I bought a pair of 15 jeans and they are smaller than the size 12′s I bought. I can squeeze into the 12′s, but the 15′s don’t go past my upper thighs o.O  Those are likely going to my sister who is shorter and much smaller than I am. (She turned 30 yesterday and still looks like she’s a teenager after three kids. *Moon ish jealous*) Excuse me, no, she’s 29 and counting. She hates the idea of being in her thirties. LOL. My sister’s kids will be adults probably by the time I get settled and ready to have children.

So Amber tells me last night I didn’t have to take public speaking at all, I could have taken theater instead. O.O. Yes, I know, I need to get better at public speaking. I already can act – I do that well enough. I still haven’t decided what the hell I’m going to do for my demonstrative speech. I might just make my grandfather’s chip dip and be done with it. That takes all of two steps though so it might not be long enough. Heh. I need to do my homework for Thursday – I’ve been poking at it and that’s about it. *poke, poke* Nope, it’s not any more done yet. It’s not so much that it takes me a long time to do it compared to other classes, it’s just that it’s not all that interesting.

I’m hoping the gym that’s opening up here in town (which should be opening up towards the end of this month) will offer kickboxing classes. That’s probably going to be the only way I can fit time in to actually go to a class since I’m trying to get on at either the gym itself as someone to clean up equipment after people or the Subway that’ll be next door.

I’ve not had any ‘signs’ that I’ve been sleepwalking in the past week and a half and last night I didn’t have any disturbing dreams so maybe whatever’s been bugging me has worked its way out of my system. The bruise and bump that were on my cheekbone are gone as far as I can tell although that area’s still tender a bit. Normally I just get scratches and bruises on my legs and occasionally my arms. When it’s my face, I’m a little more concerned.

Anyway… I will close there and make some attempt to actually get work done since I have class this afternoon.

Well, I realize I’ve not posted on here as much. College really has been that crazy – anyone who’s had to put up with my temper tantrums caused by sleep deprivation, coming in and finding me awake with my face implanted on my keyboard, or my wide-eyed expression of ‘Oh my Gods, where is my homework?’ when I’m packing my backpack (a.k.a. the mule’s load) for the evening.

Tomorrow, I get to carry two bags since I’m supposed to lug all my research for my informative speech on ghosts to public speaking class. I swear, I’m running out to my car with the extraneous stuff before Counseling class.

I got an 84 on my first English Comp paper. That blows. I don’t care what Lori says, it blows chunks. But that’s just me being pessimistic and not wanting to accept that I’m going to improve the more papers I write. I’m just afraid I’m not going to have the high total GPA I want. ^_^; Overachiever, yep, that’s me.

That’s not really why the week’s been rough. I just recently found out that a close friend who had a battle with liver cancer a few years ago is going to have to fight it again. All my happy thoughts of how well I’m doing at school despite my spazzing sorta sucked right out the window. In fact, I wasn’t sure I was breathing for a while there.

I hate that she’s halfway across the country from me the most, but at least we all can keep in touch via the Internet and phones and such. Please light candles, say prayers, whatever works for ya if you don’t mind. She’s probably one of the few people on the face of the planet that actually understands how I think.

I’m on Myspace if anyone cares to find me. ID is moonmage82.

My newest non-school-related obsession is Gaia Online. I’m moonmage82 there also. So you can usually find your favorite mage somewhere even if I’m not always posting away on here.

I am happy to report that I am 11 lbs. away from my initial weight loss goal. Wahoo! My workouts are a lot more intensive than they used to be. Now, if I could just get that job I want at Subway, I’ll probably be able to start going back to martial arts classes fairly soon. Yeah, I finally decided I wanted to… Not sure *where* I’m going to go but I can figure that out later.

I grew up on all the various ‘Godzilla’ films but most of us have wanted to see the original, unedited version of the Japanese film which is entitled ‘Gojira.’ Yes, it’s in black and white which I can’t understand why on earth people think that’s a problem. Black and white films look better artistically anyway.

But in any case, you can read about Gojira’s upcoming release to DVD at the website and enter their contest while you’re there for a week’s trip for two to Tokyo. (Of course I entered it. Go to Japan? For free? You bet your butt I’m going to enter.) The rest of the prizes are none-too-shabby either.

Yesterday was my first day of college (and Spanish). Not too bad. I was actually surprised at what I remembered. Today I’ve got Algebra and English Comp. I actually have Wednesday off from Spanish but I’ll have homework to make up for it.

I’m off to workout for a bit and do some housework, this silence is killing me so I’ll aso be making use of my ipod.

Hamster Dance, anyone?

Someone sent me this – enjoy!